Sleepless nights. ♥

   Did you ever had sleepless nights? Nights when you just can`t sleep? When all those thoughts flood your mind.. When all you can think of it`s him/her and your life.
   Those long late nights when you`re on your phone. When you talk on Facebook or Twitter..
   But what led to those nights? What made you have no sleep and stay up all night?
   Isn`t it all about love? Well I think that it is. The way love can change us is impossible to describe exactly. Altough we will never have an exact definition of love,everyone will tell his opinion about in which way love has changed him or if it did changed him or not...

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   Those nights..Such memories..
   And right now, a quote came in my mind, a popular one I think. "Time will heal". Do you believe it? I personally don`t. So much time passed me by,so much time wasted on trying to work things out..And nothing was healed. The wounds are still there. So deep inside that no one can see. Do you feel the same? If so,then you know how it is to stay up until 4am and think of your life.Think of what can come next to hurt you. What can get worse. Will it get any better? Will everything work out? And the most common answers are : no,maybe yes maybe no,who knows.. So complicated,isn`t it? But no one ever truely said that life is easy. No one can define the word "life". For each and every one,this word,means so many things. Has so many meanings. What does it mean to me? Time passing by without bringing anything good. Sadness. A long period of time that seems endless and useless.Many wounds that will never heal. Scars that remind about the past.Regrets. Memories I want to forget. Things that I will never be able to get out of my head. I can go on like this forever with what life means to me. But we can hope and no one is allowed to deprive us of it. Hope.

   Those tears that fell.. Those fake smile you put just so people won`t become sad about it too. The moments you want people to think you`re happy so they won`t ask what`s wrong. The days with sun outside but with darkness in your heart. The pain in the chest. The eyes that sting after crying hours after hours.. The feeling you get when someone says "Cheer up! Life goes on. The future lies ahead you."
   Who knows. Maybe waiting hurts,but it may be worth it. We can only find out.
   We know the past , live the present and wonder about future. ♥